Life begins at 26 :)

Turning 26 is a milestone.. Especially with how the year 2013 is going for me. A month has barely passed, and yet I've gone through with a lot, perhaps more than any other single month of my life.

My kuya got married on the first week and moved out of our house right after the ceremony. First immediate family to leave and somehow, without having to say it, we all feel as if something's missing everyday.

Not long after that, my mom was rushed to the hospital with a case of heart attack and then found out she needs a heart bypass as soon as possible. That news really rocked me to my core when I heard about it at the middle of the week, just before my birthday at that. It's one of those moments you never thought could happen to you and when you find yourself in it, it feels so surreal. As if you're on the outside looking in. The busy work week seems to be a blessing at that time, forcing me to come home late to an almost empty house. Instead of waiting for news and updates, at least I get to pour myself in a lot of emails and phone calls all through more than 12 hours of work for 2 days straight. The stress at work became some sort of refuge from the real world of having to face the possibility of something I can't even say out loud.

Celebrating my birthday today seems unthinkable then, but I know there's just one thing I want. I knew my birthday wish is reserved for my mom. There's nothing I want  for my birthday but for my mom to survive the operation and for our house to feel like a home again. That's why when I saw her this afternoon at the hospital, and I got to talk to her about the most trivial of things, I knew this birthday is one of the best I've ever had.

Discovery Suites

I've been working at Discovery Suites just for the past week but I can not wait to chronicle everything.

Nakakapanibago din pala talaga.. I was working in operations since I graduated over 4 years ago, so the whole office set-up is relatively new to me. I had admin works in my previous jobs, of course, but I can't believe how different having a "few" admin work is to having admin work 100% of my duty time. It takes getting used to, but I feel I can adjust well enough because I realized for a while now that this is what I want to do with my career. I want to work and eventually grow in the Hotel Industry.

The excitement seems endless. Andaming bago, andaming natutunan at nakikilala. Sana nga I have what it takes to take off and succeed in my chosen field.

I'm nervous, but at the same time looking forward to all the new things i'll experience. Sana nga talaga, this is really is it na talaga ;)

It pays to be patient..

In just over 4 months, the waiting game has finally ended.. And i can say with certainty, it was all worth it!

It sounds so cliche but God really has His plan for each and everyone of us.. We may not understand this at a particular time in our life, but we should learn to trust enough to let go and find peace in His love. There were a lot of "wasted" and "almost" opportunities in the past, but those times helped me realize how precious my "now" really is.

Some say, if it's really meant to be, it will come naturally.. easily even. I kinda agree. After all has been said and done, I realize, I am where I am right now in my life because I was patient enough to wait and believe. Hindi ko pinilit kasi alam ko, God's plans for us will always be what's best.

Looking back, I can say even though I still can not understand the meaning of the things I went through in the past to get where I am now.. (I'm not perfect). Pero it brought me here and I can not be more thankful.

The waiting game..

It's been over a week since but still there's no calls. The last friday the 13th we had was lucky for me, I hope today proves the same.

"Lord help me be patient, help me accept and trust. Help me focus and enjoy the beauty that is today. Thank you. Amen"

Kanin Club Dinner with I6 Blockmates

Had dinner with former I6 blockmates last night at Kanin Club Ayala Triangle. It's always fun to catch up with them and reminisce about college life. UP Diliman life was really the best experience anyone can ever have and sharing 4 years with these people, all the more made it unforgettable. 


Jozelle and I also had our own task to complete earlier that day, and we were pooped come dinner time. We were literally together the WHOLE day, more than 12 hours. Haha. We were at QC/ UP area then walked a huge part of Timog, took a bus to Ortigas walked around the compound of Megamall, before finally taking the MRT to Ayala. All this walking around with non-stop rain, can really take its toll on anyone. What a way to spend a DAY OFF. Hopefully, it will all be worth it soon. 

June 26, 2012 Tuesday

Am I happy my blog is still up and running! It's nice to know all the memories I found important enough to write about so many years ago, are still preserved and safe in my own little space. =)

Update: I'm having a quarter-life crisis! Hahaha. Or so I believe.. At least when it comes to my career. I've been with SM for the past 1 year and 8 months and I'm at the point wherein, i'm settled. As in, i'm not in the new/ adjustment phase that was so uncomfortable and unpleasant.. I'm also past the stage wherein naaliw ako sa bawat nangyayaring bago sa work. Wala pa naman ako sa point na wala nang pakialam.. Buti na lang. I'm at  a point wherein i feel like i've done all i could for the company and my department, and it's time to move on. Maybe onto a different position, or a different company or a different industry all together.

I feel like, us having a new Department Manager last Tuesday, is the sign i was looking for to confirm my feelings. Parang, okay na sila. I won't be "abandoning" them when/ if  I leave. Naalala ko kasi dati namin Manager, bago siya umalis (back in Feb), sabi niya wag ko daw muna iwan ang Department, wag ko muna iwan co-supervisor ko. So I guess I stayed because I can't leave. Now, after 5 months.. This is the moment.

*fingers crossed*

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I'm glad my old blog is still up and running even if my last post was a little over a year ago and posts are so far in between. It's funny how all the emotions i felt the time i was writing the more dramatic posts are still fresh in my memory.

How time has changed but then again, not really.

I now work in SM Megamall, and life there is so different from what i'm used to at Pancake. There was and still is a lot of adjustment. Nakakaloka pag inisip ang lahat ng pinagdaanan ko this past 7 months. What a ride, really. Parang akong dumaan sa butas ng karayom, pero it's still not over. I have to be constantly on my toes and my guard (way) up. Ewan ko ba, ang gulo na hindi. It's definitely far from being boring and routine that's for sure.

I don't know if i'm necessarily happy or not.. Parang my emotions about SM is so indescribable that it just goes to show how confused and baffled i am about the whole thing. Sa kaguluhan ng isip ko, i made a pact with myself to stay for one year and see from there. I surrender. Ayoko na humiling kung hindi para sakin, ayoko na magdecide for myself. I'll let life take its course and just trust that all will be well.

Bawal mag-isip! haha

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I know i'm not supposed to feel this way but i can't help it. Nakakainis at the same time nakakatampo. I know i'm being selfish and i know this has happened before and i reacted almost the exact same way. I know she got hurt and i promised to change, but i can't help it. There must be something wrong with me if the happiness of my friend makes me feel and act this way. Ang nega ko talaga pag dating sa ganito. I'd rather just not deal with it than actually talk about my feelings. I'm being unfair but i can't help it.

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Bakit ang cheesy ng mga tao lately? I didn't know i was so anti-mush until some of my close friends started acting all weird. I guess i just miss the good old days when all we have are each other and are very much contented with that. Hay naku.. Just have to get used to it from now i guess..